Warning: sialene dlhy, v zasade crying post, ale s hlbokou psychologickou otazkou inside, plus kvizova otazka o penaznu vyhru inside!Som si isty ze v zivote som sa po session necitil horsie ako dnes

Cista frustracia
V polke session v breaku o 23.00 to vyzeralo najlepsie ako mohlo. Deep v 22 pomalej (13/34 vtedy, $5k prva), dobry stack na bubble 33e turba, solidne stacky v DFG i 22c (40k, cca 2.5x AVG), ale tiez stack na kazdom turnaji v druhej herni kde hram - z toho 2x nieco ako 5/25, plus kopu dalsich turnajov s potencialom.
Hned po breaku sa to zacalo ***** (=kazit).
Najprv som nejak loose (a zle)
r/c 66 v 33e turbe vs 15bb shove, typek otocil
AA a hned nato som vypadol na bubble. Nasledne vypadavam z
DFG, kez cez raise a 2 callerov posielam do boja svojich
23bb s 86s, bohuzial prvy caller ma
QQ a napriek gutshotu a FD na riveri ho nesucknem
Potom prislo krute vypadnutie z $22 - 27. za $98

Nedal som snap call, ale usudil som ze proti vacsinovemu rangu flipujem a teda to nemozem zlozit... mal som pravdu ale bolo mi to na figu.
Poker Stars $20+$2 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t2500/t5000 Blinds + t500 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History ConverterBB: t311527 M = 25.96UTG: t98169 M = 8.18
UTG+1: t112498 M = 9.37
UTG+2: t107487 M = 8.96
MP1: t135801 M = 11.32
MP2: t164145 M = 13.68
CO: t41668 M = 3.47
Hero (BTN): t123447 M = 10.29SB: t235038 M = 19.59
Pre Flop: (t12000) Hero is BTN with 9

A
6 folds,
Hero raises to t11111,
1 fold, BB calls t6111
Flop: (t29222) 2

6

3
(2 players)BB bets t115000, Hero calls t111836 all in
Turn: (t252894) T
(2 players - 1 is all in)River: (t252894) 3
(2 players - 1 is all in)Final Pot: t252894
BB shows K

6

(two pair, Sixes and Threes)
Hero shows 9

A

(a pair of Threes)
BB wins t252894
Na PS tuto kapitolu uzavrie
22c, kde prehram 2/3 stacku na rivernutej nut str8 s QJ, ale super riverne na 54s flush a zvysok prehram na K7s resteale, super ma sice J8s, ale na rozdiel odo mna na turne flush
O tom som ale primarne nechcel. V mojej milej malej herni hram co to dam, a v dvoch malych s prvymi okolo $1k sa blizim na FT.
A vtedy to nejak pride... last 17, som mozno 10/17 (hoci predtym som bol stale v top 5, len zrazu ma nejak moc zacali 3betovat a nikdy som to nemal), ked tu zrazu reg raisne na MP,
mne prepne a poslem hned za nim 19bb reshove s K9o (!), fesak otoci
AK a flop dojde
AAK 
Neviem preco, pri triezvom usudku by som to nikdy nespravil, bola to cista blbost, nebol som nejak nastvany, proste z nicoho nic, hoci viem ze robim blbost, nejak si niekde poviem "fuck it" a poslem to... Vysvetli mi niekto preco?
O 10min neskor. V tom druhom sme to prave dobojovali na FT, mam
komfortny 30bb middle stack, som 5/9, raisnem
UTG AQo, dostanem UTG+2
3bet na 6bb (chalan ma kryje), nemam ziadny read ktory by ma opravnoval mysliet si ze som ever ahead (ked sa nad tym zamyslim, v tomto spote ho mam na 2-3 hracov dokopy na PS), ale nie, mne nestacilo to predtym, mne prepne znova (WTF

) a poslem to (WTF

).
Chalan obv otoci AK, flop good, Q72, turn A,
river K
Prezivam peklo, x-hodinovu snahu mi najprv odpali PS a nasledne si to na 2x odpalim sam. Pritom nejde len o peniaze, samozrejme by potesili, ale v hentej herni mi ode primarne o leaderboard, po januari som tam mal dobre naslapnuty rocny, a su tam za to solidne $$, takze kazdy odpaleny turnaj ma mrzi dvojnasobne.
Psychologicka otazka: To prve bol bezny skrat a to druhe jednoducho tilt hoci si to nechcem priznat? Da sa s tym nieco robit?
Kvizova otazka o $5: co som v tej chvili u/robil:
a) rozbil som klavesnicu
b) nadaval som 5 minut v kuse
c) pisal som w4xovi do chatu "udeufhrfedpkvofvjfbti" a pod. mudrosti
d) 15min som zufalo plakal
e) chytil som hystericky zachvat, cize vsetko uvedene
Akoby mi nestacilo, osud sa rozhodol ze si do mna fakt kopne.
V tej malej herni som hral este
pondelnajsi major za $300, bezi nam middle faza, na AT2 flope dame s fesak allin, on AQ, ja AK, 60bb pot, turn good,
river Q.
Posledny klinec tesne po tom, predposledne co mi tam bezi je
$100 turbo, ITM je 12, je nas 14, ja mam pohodovy stack, nejak 5/14... CL na CO minraisne, BTN je v sitoute,
ja mam na SB ATo, takze kedze nie som pussy a nehram na mincash tak svojich
20bb easy shipnem, on ma
easy snapcallne s K7s, na turne ma s prehladom 2 pary, mne este ziju 2 gutshoty ale to je len tak aby som mal o 1 sek dlhsie nadej...
EPILOG:Tak som to nejak cele rozdychal, dohraval posledne 3 turnaje,
44 turbo na PS ma vykoplo blizko ITM, posledny turnaj mimo PS som dotlacil na
3. miesto za nejakych $800, ale krasny shot v
$11 reb na PS si ma vychutnal, po par setupoch a darcekoch som mal zrazu
130k stack pri avg mozno 40k, ale stacili 3 ruky za 5min a ja som mohol zacat pisat tento whining post

Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1000/t2000 Blinds + t200 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History ConverterHero (SB): t111155 M = 23.16BB: t24098 M = 5.02
UTG: t19496 M = 4.06
UTG+1: t25295 M = 5.27
UTG+2: t90038 M = 18.76
MP1: t76134 M = 15.86
MP2: t21614 M = 4.50CO: t59518 M = 12.40
BTN: t69205 M = 14.42
Pre Flop: (t4800) Hero is SB with A

9
4 folds,
MP2 raises to t21414 all in,
2 folds,
Hero raises to t40828,
1 foldFlop: (t46628) T

5

3
(2 players - 1 is all in)Turn: (t46628) J
(2 players - 1 is all in)River: (t46628) 9
(2 players - 1 is all in)Final Pot: t46628
Hero shows A

9

(a pair of Nines)
MP2 shows Q

J

(a pair of Jacks)
MP2 wins t46628
Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1000/t2000 Blinds + t200 - 9 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History ConverterHero (CO): t89541 M = 18.65BTN: t53406 M = 11.13SB: t17296 M = 3.60
BB: t13299 M = 2.77
UTG: t45522 M = 9.48
UTG+1: t101629 M = 21.17
UTG+2: t63036 M = 13.13
MP1: t63118 M = 13.15
MP2: t64205 M = 13.38
Pre Flop: (t4800) Hero is CO with Q

Q
5 folds,
Hero raises to t4199,
BTN raises to t22000,
2 folds,
Hero raises to t68000, BTN calls t31206 all in
Flop: (t111212) 7

T

3
(2 players - 1 is all in)Turn: (t111212) 5
(2 players - 1 is all in)River: (t111212) K
(2 players - 1 is all in)Final Pot: t111212
Hero shows Q

Q

(a pair of Queens)
BTN shows A

A

(a pair of Aces)
BTN wins t111212
Poker Stars $10+$1 No Limit Hold'em Tournament - t1000/t2000 Blinds + t200 - 8 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History ConverterHero (UTG+1): t35735 M = 7.77MP1: t110812 M = 24.09
MP2: t15696 M = 3.41
CO: t9699 M = 2.11
BTN: t100029 M = 21.75SB: t67036 M = 14.57
BB: t108440 M = 23.57
UTG: t63605 M = 13.83
Pre Flop: (t4600) Hero is UTG+1 with J

J
1 fold,
Hero raises to t4199,
3 folds,
BTN raises to t9000,
2 folds,
Hero raises to t35535 all in, BTN calls t26535
Flop: (t75670) 5

7

K
(2 players - 1 is all in)Turn: (t75670) 8
(2 players - 1 is all in)River: (t75670) 6
(2 players - 1 is all in)Final Pot: t75670
Hero shows J

J

(a pair of Jacks)
BTN shows 5

5

(three of a kind, Fives)
BTN wins t75670